Tag: #faith

Letting go of parts…

we can make a difference in this world…but first we have to let go of the roles that are not ours…bombarded by media, worries, time crunches, life demands and so much more, we become overwhelmed and see no light no hope…but if we step back and see that we are one part of a bigger picture…and we let go of the parts that are not ours, in faith, and truly focus and utilize our part/our gift…eventually, with time, there is progress and positive differences are made…one cannot do anything effectively and efficiently when one is playing multiple roles one was not designed for…it’s like a Monet painting…up close, it looks like just a bunch of random little swooshes…but take a step back…you begin to see how each swoosh is a part of this beautiful painting…and each swoosh is vital to the beauty of the painting…so breathe…let go…utilize your gift…start locally…there will be a time when you step back and you see and say “Aha! I see it now!”

1 Corinthians 12-27 – “The human body has many parts, but the many parts make up one whole body. So it is with the body of Christ. Some of us are Jews, some are Gentiles, some are slaves, and some are free. But we have all been baptized into one body by one Spirit, and we all share the same Spirit. Yes, the body has many different parts, not just one part. If the foot says, “I am not a part of the body because I am not a hand,” that does not make it any less a part of the body. And if the ear says, “I am not part of the body because I am not an eye,” would that make it any less a part of the body? If the whole body were an eye, how would you hear? Or if your whole body were an ear, how would you smell anything? But our bodies have many parts, and God has put each part just where he wants it. How strange a body would be if it had only one part! Yes, there are many parts, but only one body. The eye can never say to the hand, “I don’t need you.” The head can’t say to the feet, “I don’t need you.” In fact, some parts of the body that seem weakest and least important are actually the most necessary. And the parts we regard as less honorable are those we clothe with the greatest care. So we carefully protect those parts that should not be seen, while the more honorable parts do not require this special care. So God has put the body together such that extra honor and care are given to those parts that have less dignity. This makes for harmony among the members, so that all the members care for each other. If one part suffers, all the parts suffer with it, and if one part is honored, all the parts are glad. All of you together are Christ’s body, and each of you is a part of it.”


One Body with Many Parts: Taken from http://www.biblegateway.com

muddled

so many thoughts and emotions I can’t distinguish between them…muddled inside my entire being…that knot at the back of the throat…that need to cry…except, I can’t…at least not at this moment…so…a breath in…and an appreciation for the fact that I can cry…for about a decade I couldn’t…not wouldn’t…couldn’t…misdiagnosed and over medicated I was so numb…so exhausted…to cry ONE tear I would watch the saddest movies…but it was always only a tear that would surface…now that is misery…numbness doesn’t take emotions away…it simply hides them…hides them deep inside while the body feels the effects of them…fighting to be free but locked, in chains, to unmovable boulders created ages ago that have sprouted roots reaching the center of the earth…inter-twining and locking the boulder into place…so I will breathe and appreciate this muddled-ness…being able to feel…being able to cry like a baby who’s needs are not being met when even the sappiest of Disney commercials come on…to weep during sad movies…to weep when those muddled moments come I, randomly, can

my apologies…

I want to apologize for my last post under ‘Deep Thoughts’…first I want to clarify that, for me, ignorance is not stupidity nor an insult….it is simply a lack of education on a topic that can always be remedied by choosing to educate oneself…education does not always change your opinion…but from that point forward, you have true and solid backing for your belief…it’s your belief and not your family’s, the media’s, your peer’s…NOW, I want to apologize for my statement…as I observe the news, social media posts, people’s comments on politics I have come to the realization that the majority of citizens want the same thing: human rights, equal rights, peace and truth; yes, the balance of which or the definition of which is and always will be up for debate BUT for the most part we all lean towards the same goals…what is happening is we are caught up in the fight between parties, political system ideas/threats by those parties and people in power which is fueled by the media (do some research…most news outlets are owned by the same families and intertwine somehow with one another) and then the media bombards us 24/7 with their agenda…so, we get caught in the middle…fighting and taking sides when what needs to happen is we say NO…we do not give our energies to those in power, to those in the media…but we give our energies to one another and ask one another questions and LISTEN…and breathe, finding common ground and understanding…if we each step in that direction, like a domino effect as we continue to listen, talk, travel, grow, reach out with love we will start to see true change in this country that is not political party, political system or the rich/powerful related but is HUMAN (citizen) related…so my apologies for falling into that trap of fear and anger due to the hype of the media and politicians…let’s stop pointing fingers, being defensive, living in a state of fear…and start at home with change: listening, asking questions, finding common ground…let us see where that step takes us…it is like the lyric from the song Head Full of Doubt, Road Full of Promise by The Avette Brothers: “… and your life doesn’t change by the man that’s elected…” because, it honestly doesn’t…love and peace to all💕

Reframe…

I have social anxiety and random bouts struggling with agoraphobia….but I absolutely love people, the outside world, interacting with others. I have sensory deprivation issues where it can be so extreme that the sound of my own eating really gets on my nerves, I gag with a small bite of carrot cake in my mouth (too many different textures) or I find pork rotten because I’m sensitive to the adrenaline released at the time of death of an animal in fear… but I love music and the sense of hearing, the way a good dry piece of roast tastes in my mouth and if you took the carrot cake apart, all of those ingredients are simply divine and must be savored with your eyes closed and a moan of “this flavor is beyond heaven”. I have clinical depression and at times it seems debilitating and like it will be the death of me…but without it I could never see the true beauty of life, I would never see the light and how pure and peaceful it is. Without these dark parts of my life, I would never be the abstract thinker who falls in love with life, kind/honest/quirky people, nature, and the teachings of Jesus the way I’ve been blessed and privileged to fall in love. What you might feel is a burden in your life, may actually be your greatest blessing. Take a breath and reframe it. Then give thanks for that beautiful curse that’s truly your own unique gift.

Just take a step…forward

How? How do you move through life…making choices…trying to be better…do better…when you’ve lost a decade…how do you trust your steps when the trust you had in everything and everyone had been stripped from you…without your consent…How? you look back…and you see…see God in those moments…see God carrying you through because through is where you’ve been…you’ve been in the fire…and you can see, now, that He carried you through…so you breathe…hold tight to faith in Him…and then you take a step…forward💖