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Afghanistan II

Dear Veterans,

I won’t lie and say I understand the pain, the anger, the despair… But I know others who do… As my mother tells me “This is reminiscent of Vietnam” and I’ve listened to the stories of those who were there… So please, as your wounds are reopened, reach out to those who’ve walked this path before…

A Vietnam vet, as I said thank you, told me thank you but it didn’t matter… That is not true… Because you do matter and what you did matters… And we must always have you, the soldier… During peace time and wars…

So as I say thank you I ask that you please take care of you and know that you mattered then and you matter now.

With love, gratitude and respect,

Me

Afghanistan

Dear Afghanistan People,

We see you. We are praying for you. You are not invisible and unimportant. Our hearts hurt with yours.

With love, myself and many others

To all developed country’s governments and the Taliban,

SHAME. Absolute shame on all of you. You play your chess games out of greed, ignorance and cowardice at the expense of all other humans. SHAME.

With disgust, myself and many others

Who/What is to Blame?

It is not the white man… It is not religion… In general, humans have a memory of 300 years past and look approximately only 100 years in the future… What it is is greed… Every country has a native people… Every country was built by slaves and the lowest class… North America is always heavily under the microscope because it is the baby of all countries… And that’s the broadest humans, in general, think in regards to time…

We should be lifting us, mankind, up all as one… Push forward with unity and not division in the likes of BLM and AAPI… Push forward lifting kindness, truth and love… Not riots, screaming and pointing fingers… Acknowledge that truth is no political party has the answer, no ethnicity is king or queen over another, truth isn’t “your truth” but it is THE TRUTH… And take a good look at one another and see one another as family, friend.. Not needing to agree on all things but wanting to live in harmony with one another… Harmony is a flow of many different ideas vibing in unison towards the goal of peace and love…

Find similarities and come together… Celebrate differences… Unite as ONE against greed, hate and ignorance. This is the only way forward.

Battle of Body and Spirit

A tug of war between body and spirit. A flare up. Triggered by stress. Most who live with a chronic illness know these moments well. Painful and nauseating. Heightened emotions. The only remedy is rest. But my spirit wants to do yoga, jog, create some kind of art and enjoy the cloudy skies outside. These are difficult moments. What I want to give, to do, is vastly more than what I am capable of doing. It ways heavily on my mental state. If I don’t literally give myself permission to rest, it is a very difficult day.

And today is a back and forth, tug of war, battle between permission to rest and get up/push through the sickness.

All you can do is ok

I started this section to share the studies I’ve done… To study them again with you… Learn new things… See new things… But summer has been rough… And rough is an understatement…

Little energy to give so my in depth Bible studying sort of faded… Everyday, though, I read the verse of the day and I talked to God and gave thanks for anything beautiful… Always feeling like I was failing, not doing enough, inept…

Now I see how much that helped and how much I needed that… I need Him… It’s okay to not be consistent in how you study or the in depthness of the study… What’s important is to connect with God, daily, however you can… However much you are able… Some days it will be more and others less… Just connect and walk with Him as much as you possibly can… And that’s ok

Patience

Sarah was impatient… Look at what it caused… Moses was impatient… Look at what it cost him… I was impatient… Creating a life of pain and chaos… Delaying God’s plan for me… The Lord is worthy of patience… He is also the source of strength as you wait… I will wait… I prefer His plans, His path for me, over mine… I make messes… He creates beauty

Voting Rights: Cut through the BS

The good: 1. provide ONE form of photo identification which will be verified against state database. In English: they want to make sure you are you, you are a citizen AND you are alive. The argument is the voter card should be enough and it is difficult for some to get a photo ID. This is untrue. One cannot obtain a voter card without already posssessing a photo ID. If you have your voter card, then you have a photo ID. Where I work an election, this will never happen. Our ID protocol and our adherence to said protocol is strict. I even ID my family. Someone stealing your vote DOES HAPPEN. The media silences this. 2. No mass mail out ballots and strict absentee/mail out ballot guidelines. Did you know that there are registered voters who are actually dead? That means with auto mail out ballots to registered voters the following scenario is possible: A residence receives mail in ballot of former tenant who has passed away. They are then able to vote twice if they happen to be dishonest or fully convicted in their political views. There was an interview with a woman, race and election not I’m not saying, and in her interview she said “I voted several times. As many times as I could for my man. I want him in.”

The bad: 1. Limiting polling stations and polling hours. While it is difficult to find people to work an election,that is not an excuse. Fighting against that is asinine and does prevent citizens from their right to vote. It’s simply anti-American. We can and should do better in this area.

The idk: I do not know enough about the drive through voting stations to form an opinion. I do know that I cherish my right to vote. If I have to stand in a line for hours, then that’s what I will do. If I don’t want to, then I will follow the protocol for absentee/mail in voting.

Why is this important? Voting is a right and it is a fragile one… It NEEDS to be protected… Do not let mass media distractions, social media screams and your political party view distract you from that basic fact… Protect your vote and your right to vote… Would you want someone creating debt, committing crimes, using your name for anything other than what YOU wanted? No. So why do we slowly give our right to vote away so easily?

It’s not a Republican/Democrat issue. Neither party has an unbiased plan for voters and voting rights. To me, that is unAmerican. And I’m sick of their games.

Do Over

I was laying by my daughter as she was sleeping… Found myself wishing for a ‘do over’… I knew exactly the moment in time I wanted it to begin… A ‘do over’… To prevent all the crap my choices put us through that brought us to now… Not that now is bad… We both fought for now… But the fight was unnecessary due to my choices… As I lay there envisioning my ‘do over’… I began to picture changing things… And trying to prevent the struggles of others…

That’s when I realized… A would screw up my ‘do over’… Creating the same mistakes I did before… Trying to ease the pain and prevent the struggling of others… More specifically those who do not want help or are not ready for help… Slowly but surely leading the path of the last decade of mine and my daughter’s life right back to another request for a ‘do over’…

No ‘do over’ please… Someone else can have that… I’m ready to move forward… Living off the lessons I learned from that decade… Ask God first and if I move always with Him, then all steps are of Light and forward movement… Surround myself with kindness and positivity… Choose joy over sadness… Some days it is a constant choice while others joy flows with ease… To not attach myself to a sinking ship or be a soldier in a war that is not mine… And to KNOW that it is okay… I was not created to save every sinking ship or fight every war… I was created to live the path God paved for me… And I need to stop getting in the way of that.